Little Havana

2011-02-18T02:03:00.002+08:00

The Complexity of Social Life in Modern Society

This world has become so complexed socially, countless number of people's social life has turned upside down due to the influence of western popular culture. As people's thought advances, so do their needs and their behaviours.

Sex has been publicised in such a positive light that young people are definitely utilizing wave of culture to their advantage, which is definitely not desirable in any sense. However , there is no realization of this folly due to the widespread acceptance of this current trend. The huge influx of movies containing adult content has certainly done nothing to inhibit this current norm that we are seeing.

After watching , i realize how promiscuous human can behave, how desperately they can act to achieve their sexual desire.

You know it's not something proud of, but why are people not feeling that way?

2009-09-05T14:54:00.002+08:00

yup , this week was quite fruitful for me as i learnt how to tie bandages to manage fractures. i mean , its really a useful skill because now and then you can see civilians or military personnels getting fractured or injured. i think after i graduuate from the medic course, i really want to be useful, and the only way i can do that is to be attached to an operational unit. of course, having said that it does not mean that theres no pain to come. A lot of physical and mental preparation has to be in place before ops starts and thats where the stress comes in. i mean, i am not really a hands on person, but i think everyone has got to put in effort to overcome their weakness and improve on their strengths. I want to be one of them.

2009-08-01T07:09:00.000+08:00

It has been 3 months since i had my first botak haircut, and looking back at my BMT days from the viewpoint of a SISPEC trainee, i really enjoyed those relatively more carefree times. In sispec, everything has got to be done on your own. From planning to coordinating to loading up of stores, the level of responsibility is definitely much more higher than in BMT. I myself has been through it, and it is indeed not a easy task, especially during outfield.

It has been quite some time since i caught up with my good friends due to the busy schedule that i had and the loads of "sat book out, sun book in " , esp wq wj they all. haha bet they are doing fine as well . at leaast we have something in common, waking up in the wee hours to start the day. I believe that this year we are going to have a chance to come together again and have a good steamboat!

growing is not enough, maturing while growing is what makes a boy to man.
i look forward to the day when i finally start working, and i will put my ideas into reality!

2009-06-20T23:51:00.006+08:00

The one wk plus long break is coming to an end soon , and my hopes of having to wake up late the day after are going to be dashed. BMT life , as its motto calls out has come to a meaningful end. All the training will no doubt prove useful for the next phase of my NS life, but what has yet to come will be dark and unknown to us.

Got posted to SISPEC, i will do my best every single day of my training and to set a good example for the men i will lead in the future.
Tough times don't last tough man do!

All the best to my other bunk mates who are either posted to military police or other vocations. Hope you all enjoy ur 2 yrs NS life!

Last but not least, DD jy for the next few months that is going to come, I will support u all the way ok!

2009-06-13T08:41:00.000+08:00

2009-06-12T22:21:00.003+08:00

hey its the third day since passing out parade, and i am comfortably seated at home, in front of the computer enjoying my time typing. i am glad that after 2 months of basic military training, they are giving us a short break to recharge and replenish our lost energy. yes, i became more tan and in fact much more tan than before i went into ns, and haha i am quite glad actually because it is something that i am proud of. from boys to men!

from left to right :

bing you, nicholas ( chao keng! haha jkjk), yeow hua the speaker , LT jun quan, me!, nath chatterji, ci qin, qing xu

center:

wilfred jack teo!

2009-05-02T15:12:00.002+08:00

life in ns so far hasn't been filled with injuries but with very bad luck. upon the first week i came in , i was struck down with flu and was unable to participate in most of the strenous activities, and yes because of that , there were people who labelled these people as slackers or in other words "chao keng". hmm, in around 45 more mins i will be making my way towards palau tekong ferry terminal for book in , i hope tomorrow the sun will give us some leeway while we are doing the route march. the last last thing i hope would be to do the route march under the blazing sun, even 10 water parades wunt help.

i am still tired , perhaps because of the lack of slp last nite, but im not complaining , because i got to spend more time on stuff which i want to and i really really am happy!
let me take a quick 30 min nap before the boots make their way to pasir bus interchange.

NSF

2009-03-07T01:02:00.002+08:00

hai, disappointed. cuz i knew i cld do better.

cuz i knew tt it wasnt the best i cld achieve.
i shld have worked harder.
wats the use nw?

2009-03-02T21:41:00.000+08:00

i know i wunt be able to take failure, i know it will be very painful. but i have to face it . face everything that comes.

2009-03-01T20:54:00.003+08:00

hvnt been blogging a long time , i guess my dashboard has been rusting since i left it, realized i have been putting a lot of pics on my blog :/ but these are memories which i could use when i grow old..

im stuck doing almost nothing at home, this is not how i wanted to be, because when ur brain is not put to use , it Really rots at home :p i dun wan it to rot haha at least do something useful to a society. maybe i will go and do charity for free somedays which i am free, at least its contribution to society too.
have taken a liking to han wu da di these days, learning abt the han history of china . other ppl may find it weird that my eyes are actually glued to history shows and not those wat..公主小妹, or the chn 8 7pm or 9pm shows which most ppl definitely have to be there when the show starts. argh i just find it superrr interesting hehe esp when they start to debate abt the policies and go to war. oh ya , i like war films too esp those of world war I and II.

smth to recommend if u can get it : Behind enemy gates
highly recommended because the story is quite cool (abt the russia - german war)

haha if u dun like history , den seriously, dun even think about it . u mite almost be drooling on ur pillow and away in lalaland before the show even hits half.

i am worrying over smth which i sooner or later have to face

thx manx for the gifts, liked the cards esp , because its sincerity which i felt.
to me,nothing in this world can be more important than this.

2009-02-21T01:36:00.002+08:00

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2009-02-19T22:19:00.014+08:00

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2009-02-01T18:03:00.004+08:00

my cousin!

little cousin , isn't she playful ?

whole family watching tv , wonder whats on it that makes us all stare so hard ??

Yay! Chinese New Year took a lot of pics (alot alot) havent had the opp to upload them but here are some of it , i will upload more in the future. Quite Happy lah, my whole family got a reunion after 16 long years . Actually the main reason was cuz i am in sg while the rest are not so we dun get to celebrate cny together. Hehe cny in china is reli great! lots of fireworks and crackers , my ears almost bursted , haha but it was fun when the fireworks that shoot up in the sky ARE THE ONES U LIGHTED!!
hmm dunno if i managed to take pictures of fireworks? Later will go and check .
yesterday had to ying chou again -.- haha not that i dislike but too much of it is bad for health, the wine and the smoke and the seemingly fake bursting laughter. it seems so disreal.
chinese new year is the real new year , so here are my resolutions again! ( add on)

1. grow mature while in army
2. aim high
3. play less games
4. be a better friend to friends
5. cant say!

alrite so here it is , the pictures !

My mum's side family (Ah gong in the middle)

My grandpa and grandma sitting in the middle

me touching the great gong!u can hit it and the sound is really loud.

my family

err..some chinese ancient street. needless for me to say, you can see it for yourself :)

2009-01-19T13:03:00.004+08:00

Just now most of the pics were taken on gulangyu actually , but haha anw heres more pics!

Me being nice and friendly :helping to push the wheelchair!

wonderful daylight!

The marathon road (supposed to be no cars luh!)

our handphones are the same!

Just now most of the pics were taken on gulangyu actually , but haha anw heres more pics!

2009-01-19T12:33:00.004+08:00

Me and my dad standing at the entrance of the island gulangyu : the island of piano :)

the peak of the island stands high above the sea!

ME!

ME again standing against the back drop of xiamen city

the great and almighty Zheng Chenggong guards the entrance!

Beautiful beach , how nice would it be if i can suntan!

ME!

ME AGAIN!

SIANN OF ME LE RITE!

Anw from xiamen , if the sky is clear u can see taiwan ( yea this is the straits behind me they always mention when talking abt china-taiwan tensions) anw the sun is really good!

sky: clear

temp: 15-19 deg

SO, here are some of the pictures i took in Xiamen ,China. i just came back yesterday , so its like fresh from the oven haha. its a wonderful island to be in , the air and roads are much more cleaner than any other city in china ( u can Clearly see from the pictures) and the people are much friendlier as well. if you are ever in doubt or need to ask your way around, dun worry , they will always be glad to be of service to you!

2009-01-13T00:06:00.003+08:00

Soothing Piano Music : A definite way to rejuvenate ur mind and body

2009-01-07T23:14:00.002+08:00

sometimes, when you have a dilemna in your mind , what do you do with it? the most instinctive action for most people would be to sort it out and find a solution to the problem. what if perhaps, the problems presents no solution , or rather a clear one? then maybe, the next best answer would lies in consulting people around you.

exactly who to consult is a whole new complexity by itself.
this world is too complex :(

2009-01-06T15:18:00.002+08:00

俗话说得好，“助人为快乐之本”。在看到别人高兴的当儿，自己的脸也会顿时露出一丝不苟的笑容，。我坚信只要有诚意的善待他人，自己也会得到同样的回报。

2009-01-05T23:53:00.002+08:00

its going to be one mth soon and i will reach half of my stay in another 8 to 9 more days , actually its not really that long , but time seems to pass slower when i am doing almost nothing -.-
oh YA, i really dislike this cold weather here , maybe i am a bit hard at adapting to cold weather ( note: i alr dun like cold weather before i came here) but its really sort of freezing esp when it comes to at nite.

and haha although i have been here quite a number of times, i am still not used to the numb fingers and feet caused by the coldness. and its not going to improve anytime soon, throughout my stay its just going to get colder and colder..until feb?

my gd fren has just left for england today, back to study again . haha hope to see him next time in singapore, well we did analyze all the possible routes he could take frm england as a stopover in sg. reli hope he can just drop by the next time i will introduce all the fun places in sg ( vvery very few maybe cause i am alrdy been there lots of times??)

oh ya one thing i found here in chengdu wonderful and fantastic is the shopping centre here , nope its totally comparable to sg in case u are thinking how bad it is. high class and filled with branded goods , cant remember the names but yea nike and addidas are included . there is a large arcade here and the size was totally amazing , much better and cheaper gaming here than in sg! in fact i am bored of playing arcade alr haha！will upload some pics here , u cant believe the size as well, its definitely much bigger than vivo! ( in fact maybe even twice)

i will do some meaningful things starting tmr。

hope to cya soon :)

2009-01-01T00:20:00.002+08:00

hmm alrite guys this year we gotta lots of stuff to look back on. officially graduated from school.

formal education.

this year 18 , i am alr a young adult and maybe one day when i am old le i will look back at my old posts and see how i am when i was younger.

haha how erm crappy i am -.-

2009 lists of resolutions ( which perhaps sum1 might be interested)

1. be better by piano , get diploma latest by next year

2. make more sincere frens

3. be better at comforting ppl (hahahahhah!)

4. support the pig in wateva the pig do ( note i am not a pig)

2008-12-20T15:31:00.003+08:00

yay!
christams is coming and it means can receive gifts frm ppl! i have always enjoyed this festival and year after year it seems to hold something special for me. perhaps, maybe when i was young, my parents and grandparents used to give me christmas presents. it all started when somebody told me to hang a pair of socks beside my bed and santa claus will arrive to deliver presents! and one year , it reli did happen , cakes appeared by my bedside when the sun rose early next morning. of course , if it was santa who reli delivered those cakes, i would have jumped in joy. but after all , i think christmas is a time for family to get together and have a nice and warm chat , doesn't matter whether we celebrate it or not , what is important is the spirit of giving and have fun together doing stuff as a family.

but this year, what i wish for will not come true.

oh anw , today the v v special frog will be faced with something important.i am sure everything will be all right de!
and y is it two v v , because when u flip it round its ^^ means a huge smile!
i will be right here.

倘若弱水三千,我也只取一瓢

2008-12-18T19:51:00.001+08:00

celebrating my bdae! all looking so serious omg!

jay chou preparing to sing!

yum yum, coffee cake!

two ah peh like playing chess..

have a pepsi!

2008-12-18T19:07:00.003+08:00

its really cold down here, for a tropical man like me who is used to the blazing hot weather in singapore. especially when the cold blast of air starts to blow, i do not want anything more than a bowl of hot laksa. its already been 8 days , tmr is the start of the 9th. time seems to fly fast , but slows down with all the ongoing thoughts in my mind.

today had driving lessons at the driving school, learnt how to park the car in both direction. hehe its nothing very difficult , especially after u get the feel then u confirm can park the car into the lot. then aftn had piano lessons, and again, i find that i still have a lot to learn . everything is taught in chinese lah, but i try to adjust a bit here and there and the teacher tries to bring in some english terms , and there, the lesson was quite successful ending wif her praising me. she told me i have good hands, (to play piano ofc !) but what i am really lacking is technique and speed and , as a result, pieces of difficulty are acompanied by wrist and arm pain . haiya, i think mah , at my age , is technique reli that impt? i might as well focus on my musical sense , and enjoy music as it is. of course, in order for me to play those i enjoy, ofc mux kp up technique as well. i will work hard this holiday.

oh ya , my mum wants to hold a new year concert at someone's hse and i have been tasked to organize the whole thing. haha will involve a few household and their kids and Mind u! their kids are not jux junk musicians, they attend the Sichuan Music Academy, and at such a young age , many of them are able to play difficult pieces of certain standards. siao siao eh?

uhh means i cant slack le, since gt stuff for me to do nw.

anw realli happy that i could make new frens frm learning how to drive , haha we reli get along quite well i think although i am the youngest and now i am didi instead! fine fine,nvm i am the youngest, i can speak the best english among them all isn't it ?!

2008-12-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

hey! thanks to all the people who wished me happy bdae , including the very special frog, xiaohan jerlyn.. haha i received it all ! although i am not in sg now, but reli glad u all still rmb!

come to think of it a bdae is nth much luh, haha jux grown by one more year thats all!actually doesn't reli matter whether receive bdae present anot, sometimes jux knowing and wishing the person happy bdae is gd enough. haha precisely thats the point, sum1 totally forget eh , and came to say sry ?? its not enough manx..haha best lah ! anw nvm ..

2008-12-01T03:21:00.002+08:00

yesterday was my first official performance at SOKA centre tampines, i am reli honoured to be given this oppurturnity to perform . hmm i guess i am lucky becuase i know jennifer, who is the organizer of the event and i dun think she had much difficulty in letting me have a try at the piano.

1. Spring Time ( Yiruma )
2. Fantasie Impromptu (Chopin)

I will never forget yesterday, it might not seem very significant , but i promise i will do my very best and one day, just one day , as a vocational performer , i will play the rach concerto on stage.
i am happy that yesterday's response was good, and at the same time glad that i brought smiles to their faces. something that i remembered was the director of Soka came up to me and said that the performance was good, and he was impressed. haha i guess, i din't play too bad after all.
but i think i din't do reli v well, towards the end junk notes and missing notes, arh , it was reli quite bad, but somehow i think the audience never realized.. so its oKie! just for this time at least.
so for the next 5 years at least , i will work on my technique and accuracy to bring try and bring out the best in myself.

to the Person who in the middle of the nite spy on me: plS duN sPaM mY bLog!!

lol , haha jk jk..

i am furious at the person who threw marbles at my windows. i can let him off this time , what about next time? the time after next? it will be the last time, i promise.

anw applied to be a moe relief teacher today from february till i go into ns, hope it will be accepted, i think it will be a reli fresh experience for me haha, hope to get into a secondary school near my house.

hehe :)

2008-11-15T02:18:00.003+08:00

didn't feel like slping, so just watched a movie..step up 2
haha ya quite nice , if only could dance like the guy in the movie , (cont daydreaming) .. i think they got dancers to do that..

have been thinking alot , its just heading the wrong direction.
i cld never have imagined this, it was not supposed to turn out this way.
i believe, i must do something about it.

listening to yiruma calms a person , crystal clear, without any other instruments mixed along.
it feels tranquil.

tmr start of revision for last paper !! all the way haha jiayou to myself!
chem uhh..rather not talk about it here.
hope physics mcq isn't Too hard..all that i can ask for.

2008-11-07T17:01:00.002+08:00

yoz!
haha here to do a bit of a advertising!
is anyone interested to go to a free performance by Sinagpore Soka Association ? there are singing and dance performances and its at.. erm will be confirmed later! haha yea i will be performing piano then, so if u wish to come just sms ( so its only for those who know me haha!) and i will try to get the tickets!

grouch. back to econs.
the National Income of a country is determined by its GDP blah blah blah..

today is reli a hot aftn manx!

2008-11-06T18:48:00.002+08:00

hello! i am in the middle of a lvls nw taking some time off to blog
aww i have been damn stressed these few wks ,hope can get the burden of exams off soon!
its only.. erm less than 2 more wks!!!

haha i bet no one comes to my blog anymore, because i have left it unupdated to so long, haha!
but its okie as long as my blogskin is nice , still will have peeps popping in and take a look hor haha!

lots to do after a lvl but first of all eh, mux buy lots of stuff, go on a shopping spree
get some cool cool clothes and hangout wif my yo buddies!

mmm, okie back to mugging maths
tmr is paper 2 stats 60 percent pure maths 40 percent.
dots.
paper 1 hasn't been as smooth as i thought, i was perhaps not ready and too nervous, argheipoawe! i forgot how to approximate small angles! please give me smth which i can handle tmr!

byeee!

2008-09-21T23:46:00.004+08:00

Brace Yourself for whatever that is going to come, do not be afraid, people around you are just as you are. You have to be strong no matter what, for the great last lap lies ahead of you. This is a lap which determines the winner of the entire race.

2008-09-15T00:55:00.002+08:00

我真的现在不知道该做什么才好，似乎已经要担心疯了，这种只能袖手旁观的感觉令我感到极其纳闷。告诉我，只要你能好起来，我什么都愿意，什么也不管了。都是我的错，这次完完全全是我的错。我从来都没有考虑过说话的后果，为什么。。
忏悔内疚担心交加是一种好折磨人的感觉。

你一定会好起来的，一定的。

2008-09-12T22:23:00.002+08:00

yea luh, i just wana say miss lim u rock manx, haha best teacher ever and always make us so happy , from your cold cold jokes. although we never laugh luh , but we always appreciate how you try to life our moods after a tiring day . and yea of cuz, when it comes to teaching us , u never fail to save any saliva at all and patiently explain to us every single question which we have trouble with!

thank u musssshrrrroommm queen!

2008-09-12T13:25:00.001+08:00

thx miss lim for all that you have done for us :)

2008-09-11T01:13:00.002+08:00

i reli dunno,.. i used to be attracted by it so much , but nowadays when i listen to it , its more like "oily", maybe my teacher was right, maybe one day i will like bach . but for now, i still prefer rachmanioff , its oily, but suitable for Young People to listen.
haha i just realized that kaimun 's sister bought a whole collection of classical cds. i was like happy that she listens to it, because it really soothes the mind, when u can go along with the music, it has the smoothest flow among all the music genres...

tired.yawns.tired.yawns.

bangsai is going to sleep.

2008-09-08T23:52:00.003+08:00

http://www.paulsadowski.com/Numbers.asp

There are 10 letters in your name.Those 10 letters total to 58There are 4 vowels and 6 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 4
The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.
The expression or destiny for #4:Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed.

In the arts, music will likely be your choice. (i cant believe how true is this)

Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.
The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful.(hahaha!) It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.
If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.
Your Soul Urge number is: 9
A Soul Urge number of 9 means: With a 9 Soul Urge, you want to give to others, usually in a humanitarian or philanthropic manner. You are highly motivated to give friendship, affection and love. And you are generous in giving of your knowledge and experience. You have very sharing urges, and you are likely to have a great deal to share. Your concern for others makes you a very sympathetic and generous person with a sensitive and compassionate nature.
You are able to view life in very broad and intuitive terms. You often express high ideals and an inspirational approach to life. If you are able to fully realize the potential of your motivation, you will be a very self-sacrificing person who is able to give freely without being concerned about any return or reward.
As with all human beings, you are prone to sometimes express the negative attitudes inherent to your Soul Urges. You may become too sensitive and tend to express emotions strongly at times. There can be significant conflict between higher aims and personal ambitions. You may resent the idea of giving all of the time and, in fact, if there is too much 9 energy in your nature you may reject the idea. You may often be disappointed in the lack of perfection in yourself and others.
Your Inner Dream number is: 4
An Inner Dream number of 4 means: You dream of being a very solid citizen that people can depend upon. You strive for organization and predictable order. You want to be recognized as a person with a plan and the discipline to make that plan work like clockwork.

2008-09-06T01:34:00.003+08:00

these few weeks has been hectic, revision and a lot of other stuff, but still i did not do well for chemistry , i just duno why,
facts doesn't seem to be getting into my brain anymore like they used to. nowadays more and more fallcies and illogical truth which distorts my choices in mcqs and general concepts.
i want to regain back the memory which i used to have last time , the feeling of being confident , and with this confidence , i know even without necessary ideas and knowledge , i somehow can score better than without confidence but equipped with all the facts and stuff.

motives. they are defined as the causes of effects. what comes around goes around , when you have a certain bad motive towards someone, somehow it will come back as repurcussions. just a matter of time , just a matter of extent. i used to think about bad motives , not because i want to harm , but because of compelling situations. but no matter what good reason you have, there will always be retribution. but since then , i have changed a lot , much simpler , as i found out there is no reason to be engaged in those meaningless stuff..

sometimes , i just want things to remain as simple as possible. its a good solution to complication, but somehow intuition tells me its inconfidence and reluctancy to handle complex situations. there are times that one should step out and untangle the web of complications. i just don't want to feel the regret one day that i did not try to simplify stuff..

2008-08-30T01:31:00.002+08:00

rachmanioff piano concerto no.2
tchaikovsky piano concerto no.1

isn't it the dream of any pianist who loves music just to be able to play these two concertos? the pure feeling of the whole orchestra playing together in sync with the piano to create a wonderful perfomance for the audience is just so great !

2008-08-30T01:07:00.005+08:00

a very good example of interacial mix!

Eugene with the " yea wats up guy?" look!

zhong ming busy with handphone games " tennis" i think?

hahaha, we are rvr , but wheres j?

"you are the chosen one!"

WHOSE IS THE MYSTERY GUY from 07s03 in question.
view the next blog post to find out! :))

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY! above are the pics i took during teachers day celebration at njc . soon it will all become part of our wonderful memory in our brain bank :)

i will not go on like this anymore, because it reli is time to grow up. and a lot things has to be taken responsibility for, like how when i become an adult i have to.

its a temporary conscious feeling.

2008-08-26T23:42:00.002+08:00

went to wuzhen's blog , never failed to be inspired by her . she really lights up the life of all those around her, and it seems such a natural thing for her to do so . i shld say , yes if only everyone has a heart like hers, then the world will really be much better..
haha i am still laughing at the acid +alkaline thing she wrote on her blog , perhaps she wunt know but i laughed until stomach pain. okay , very lame continue.

tmr is econs paper , i need to sleep now! bye!

2008-08-24T18:45:00.003+08:00

i guess no one really looks at my blog anymore , cuz its so dead for such a long time , actually quite long haha.

today had tuition, with mr tan .. hes such a kind old man , forever possessing the enthusiasm in maths , and i think it really is the spirit which lifts me a lot. when i cant do maths questions, i just turn back and think about him , he is already going on to 60. and probably to earn a living , he has to go door to door and squint at maths questions with those trailing eyesight and try to solve them. when he cannot do some of the questions (NJC ONES!!) , he tries them again and somehow i feel inspired that even such an old man could suffer such mental greulling , hence all the more i should put myself to the test and try to learn the harder questions.
i truly hopes when he retires , he gets to enjoy life :))

prelims , i am more worried about my physics and chem as usual , they are after all the weakest link. but there is no turning back now, and i shouldn't be even saying this now.. "focus. look at every single question and tackle them as if it was ur last breath "

though i dun know you, but i know there are many people who are concerned about you, esp her. no matter what, u have to pull it through..

2008-08-13T23:26:00.001+08:00

2008-08-13T23:17:00.002+08:00

2008-08-11T21:57:00.003+08:00

i believe in HIM. after all , it has never so miraculously happened before, and he answered every single one of my prayers.
i truly think god exists, in each and everyone of us.

when i was facing much pressure during my olevels days, i thought that maybe i couldn't get the score i wanted and get into jc of my choice, because something tells me i did not do very well. i prayed hard to HIM for a good score , at least able to get into nj. and he helped me , he helped me to get into njc.

then, i was not fully compelled to believe of his existence, maybe i thought it was luck. but it cant be , i fell sick 3 days ago, in the aftn on the eve of national day . i was not only phsically sick, but worried as well, for my results, because it would mean that i could not concentrate well.. but i still tried, to study a bit. it was futile, nothing could go into my brain at all. i knew it, because once a fever strikes me , it has never failed to linger for at least 3 days. and all of a sudden , i thought of him, and decided to give it a try, so i prayed hard, hoping that i would recover as soon as possible...

and i felt the fever going away as soon as evening. well though now i still have a cough and a bit of a sorethroat, but at least i am comfortable enough to revise. and he has fullilled me this wish.. i am really grateful to him for that. although i am not a christian , but these incidents has made me realize that his presence is all around us.

2008-08-03T09:30:00.006+08:00

removed all the cip stuff, not supposed to be part of my blog , but anyway ..

i lost 70 bucks to prom nite! oh great, i hope everyone agrees with me that it 70 is really not a small amount for a dinner , and some shows. i mean going to equinox is only 65 bucks and you get the greatest view of singapore from it (apart from the flyer i guess) ,and the food is not bad either (cuisine dishes) . but i guess it a once in a lifetime chance so we wunt miss it.

went for ndp preview yesterday at the floating platform!
1. Goodie bag

erm it was not bad la, but what i liked abt it is really the crackers and sweets inside. and there are other stuffs as well, such as this hand which will light up when you inflate it and wave. and this small bottle of 风油. i wonder what they gave that for , to avoid people from fainting ?

2. Performance
the parade segment of the show was quite standard, different contigents marching up and across the floating platform at the command of the parade commander, then all the inspection bla bla bla. what was really funny was a super lame thing..

you know when the prime minister and senior minister alight from their vehicle the emcee is supposed to anounce their arrival . but because ytd was a preview, so when they alighted , the emcee will say .. audience please arise to welcome the arrival of the prime minister...............simulated! LOL i know its not funny when i say it here, but trust me if u had been there u wld have laughed, becuase the person saying it laughed himself as well...

3. Weather

climbing onto the platform where we were supposed to be seated was an uphill task. we basically had to compete for oxygen with the huge crowds while we were halfway up the stairs. i was sweating profusely but after we manage to get a seat.. haha the sea breeze was great

4. performance i enjoyed most

the black knights aerial display . these are really well trained professional RSAF pilots. need i say more?

maybe a video of them would be good.

我知道己不所欲，勿施于人
不过你若能俯允所请，则不胜感激。

2008-07-20T13:52:00.000+08:00

oh no ..i simply cannot believe this. too surprising!

2008-07-17T23:23:00.003+08:00

haha omg here to post something to prevent this blog from dying off ..its been so long since i last posted something.

anyway an appetizer , by our chem teacher miss lim:

why is the back of the penguin black??

ans: because the penguin has short "hands" , so they cant reach and scratch their back!!

haha okie, maybe i will be the only one laughing at this maybe.. cuz i din't really hear any laughter when miss lim told us the joke.
i cant believe she actually said that of miss lim , i was sort of disgusted by what she said , i couldn't disagree more with her, i jux tot maybe shes just weird??

anw my life is filled with basically 5 subjects now, and apart from it my brain is basically too saturated to think about other stuff at the same time..
perhaps maybe when to stone?

anw we played basketball today , zhang fan+weiming vs me zhongming and weihong. basketball team jiu shi basketball team , i think weiming can 1 v4 liao haha.
den after chem consultation there was street soccer tournament in NJC! haha it was just nice we managed to catch a few exciting matches, because almost all the teams had one or two soccer players, haha and we were just fascinated by their powerful headers!

oh ya, i think i am v bad at throwing fribeeee
-.-

2008-07-05T20:28:00.002+08:00

Best Friends. They are the light of your life, such that when you experience upset and sorrow, they are the ones u would first turn to . in search of comfort, relieve. there are people , i knew in the past who could have become my best bosom friends, people who truly understand me, people who i really could rely on in times of despair.

but i din't treasure them , i was busy keeping up with my own schedule of schoolwork, cca, even meaningless activities such as computer games. i let them slip by my life, one by one. and once the chance is gone, it is not so easy to make it up. because after all, they would guess i am the kind of person who doesn't care about good friends.

i will not, make the same mistake twice.

2008-07-02T20:10:00.003+08:00

i officially have two swollen fingers now.. looks like i wunt be able to play piano anytime soon. hurt it during the softball game today, looks like i havn't learn my lesson from last time, i still cannot relax while playing. the thing is , if i dun relax, somehow my fingers will just tense up and when the ball comes to me and i am not alert, oh well, there goes my fingers. i think maybe i will just play using the left hand these few days.

ok , can feel the stress coming . the intense emotions i felt during my o level is here again. why? i am surprised , perhaps i thought i might not feel it at all, but its already in july, i have 4 more months, time for me to really plan out what i want to do . everyday in school , is becoming more rigourous, more draining . the amount of work everyday is almost the same , tons of it, maybe only able to complete more than half of it.

argh, i even have problem typing on the keyboard now.

i guess everyone is used to ridiculing at others. we have mild jokes all the time , making fun of others . but sometimes i just look back, have we really been too much. perhaps maybe its just to create an instantaneous of fun , but after that we are put into this position such that it totally forces that person into his own wall further more. then we ask ourselves, are we really so bad at tolerating others?
and perhaps maybe its because what i have gone through as well, i know that feeling. this feeling of ...dejection. and i am glad i have gone through all those, because it has really increased my understanding of different people.

i think back of what we have learnt , to accept people who are different from us , and especially those who are not local or require some help from us to integrate into the community. we are not helping, i am sure.but i guess sooner or later, we will be involved in the ongoings of the global community. so why cant we , as we should, accept deviation from norms and removing the double standards we have for people who interact with us almost everyday. if we can only excel in our studies, but not be more sensitive to those who have around us, then what is the point of gaining so much knowledge. shouldn't then we really be labelled as bookworms?

that even i have to say, i have not done well in this area. because yes, i do join in.

ouch! finger pain.

thx for what u have given me, i really appreciate what u have done :)

2008-06-25T01:26:00.004+08:00

isn't life just like a dream ?

just like liebestraum, the name of the piece you are hearing right now if you have turned on your audio. except that it is a dream of love. the harshest reality hits you right at the time you are feeling most vulnerable, leaving you suffering all sorts of disasters, and just the mental thought of having to clear up so many troubles all at the same time rids you of all the passion and motivation for what life is all about.

yet this harshness is not faced equally by everyone, some handle it better than other people who are in the same situation as they are, and leave those slower ones thinking, why is life biased towards them

but at some point of time, don't you just feel you are more fortunate than others, that people close around you care greatly about you , that perhaps maybe your friends do not get the same fortunate family than you do. den perhaps, it alleviates some of the disturbed feelings you might have from experiencing injustice in life.

but to always think about the don't-haves is almost always more tiring as thinking of the haves ; but beacause we are living in such a society that compels us to compete with the best, we want to own everything that people at the top of the hierarchy has . lets pose this question to ourselves, is this possible? i am not saying, no, we shldn't shoot for the stars, because after all you never know what you can achieve only after you have really put in a decent attempt.

this is my final year in the mainstream education. i think i am really going to miss life as a school student . although it sounds cliche, all good things will come to an end one day . as much as u wish that time will just pause at the moment u want it to , but the fact is, many of the things in life are beyond our control. sometimes we leave up to fate to decide, sometimes we do our best and hope for the best. but whatever it is, as long as wonderful momories are left behind at the end, all will be worth it.

2008-06-20T02:14:00.003+08:00

Piano Concerto No. 2 In C Minor - Rachmaninov Sergei

why did he write such a difficult piece, such wide stretches.. such fast passages. how is anyone below the virtuosic level be able to play this wonderful masterpiece..

to me , this will always be the greatest piece of music ever written , just listen to the chords at the beginning..such rich chords, yet they are so difficult to play..

2008-06-20T01:56:00.000+08:00

Vivaldi: WINTER (from four seasons)

Winter From The Four Seasons Concerto No. 4 - Vivaldi

a bit too slow for my taste, but nevertheless this has always been one of my favourite violin,
used to have this dream of being able to play this. maybe it can come true one day :)

2008-06-20T01:07:00.002+08:00

Merry christmas Mr Lawrence.

the starting.. its just like snow falling , everysingle note dat hits the piano, like every single drop of snow.
den it goes on to the main melody, so sensitive, and a bit of heart wrenching. like perhaps, a lonely christmas staring at the snow outside. maybe this is wat santa does when he has distributed all his presents , staring at the lovely snow scene all by himself...

den it goes on to the chorus, this part to me, it feels like, the children who has received all the presents from santa, enjoying themselves , basking themselves in the spirit of christmas, the spirit of giving, making others feel happy, and they themselves feel elated as well. at the same time, they are thankful to santa, who has without delay presented them with gifts of all sorts.

2008-06-18T00:48:00.003+08:00

用华语打字很慢，发短讯也很慢。
i think they should reli create some kind of dictionary for chinese sms, it reli helps a lot..
the next event in harmoc will be the elections, and yes i think we all (seniors) will be looking forward to that as well. my life at harmoc has been wonderful, being able to clinch the first ever gold with honours , and setting yet another standard for our musical accomplishment, i will never forget the times spent with my seniors, be it at hanging out with them at outings, or having a game or two at the lan shop, or going for band lunch and dinner. immediately after they left harmoc , we had the genting trip , where we saw many other performing group holding the same instrument as we do , and knowing how their standard elevates us just fascinates me. i then had this thought, that you can really go far with this small and light instrument. and the most important thing is that its not easy. its not easy to master the technique of tonguing, and the technique of vibrato looks so awkward on all of us, because we had not been specially trained in this area.
and time passes fast. we soon reached the year 2008 , this year , i would say, has been a good one for all of us. we had an unprecedented junior intake of around 50 people and many of them , though new , but has willingly laid down time and effort to practice with us for our concert. and we can see improvements. from knowing basically nothing about the instrument, to being able to play a piece of certain difficulty . the barber of seville for example, was one of the more difficult pieces in the concert programme, and which mr tang has indicated that it could probably be a syf piece next year. and finally ,with our first ever step out and sold out concert at the esplanade, we can all look forward to our next en armonia , which i believe will be held at a much bigger venue with better sound reasonance.
looking at the elections, i reli hope we will succesfully elect the candidate with the best leadership qualities and responsibilities, and to bring njhb to greater heights! :)

hope u get well soon ! :))

2008-06-14T22:25:00.002+08:00

i have to be sensible..
because i know it wunt do any good.

if only there was another option available..

2008-06-12T01:30:00.001+08:00

maybe sometimes i am just too crappy, but this is my way of making friends wif ppl, smtimes i think do i reli have to change myself..

i think the best is to be serious when there is a nid to be so , but relax at other times..is the most comfortable feeling for me .

2008-06-12T01:24:00.001+08:00

ENTPs are often happy with the following jobs which tend to match well with the Originator/Intellectual personality.
Actor
Artist
Comedian
Computer Analyst
Computer Programmer
Consultant
Designer
Engineer
Entrepreneur
Inventor
Journalist
Lawyer/Attorney
Marketer
Musician!!!!
Photographer
Politician
Psychiatrist
Psychologist
Public Relations
Sales Representative
Scientist
Systems Analyst
Writer

2008-06-12T01:16:00.003+08:00

ENTP Relationships
Typically good-natured, upbeat and laid-back, ENTPs can be delightful people to be around. They get a lot of enjoyment and satisfaction from interacting with others, and especially enjoy discussing and debating theories and concepts which interest them. They may be prone to initiate arguments because they so enjoy the debate. They are generally fun-loving and gregarious, and can be quite charming. They have a problem with sometimes neglecting their close relationships when they become involved in the pursuit of a new idea or plan.

ENTP Strengths

Enthusiastic, upbeat, and popular
Can be very charming (very very very very very very very very very charrrrrrrrming..!!! woots!)
Excellent communication skills ( see communicate with who , communicate with my phy teacher is almost impossible)
Extremely interested in self-improvement and growth in their relationships ( yes yes yes yes yes)
Laid-back and flexible, usually easy to get along with (of cuz la)
Big idea-people, always working on a grand scheme or idea ( note! i am not a scheming person (狡猾) the word scheme is just so wrong)
Usually good at making money, although not so good at managing it ( hvnt reli made any money yet)
Take their commitments and relationships very seriously ( i told u rite!)
Able to move on with their lives after leaving a relationship ( when i saw this , it made me think of u again , have i reli moven on ?)

ENTP Weaknesses
Always excited by anything new, they may change partners frequently (NO, this is not true!)
Tendency to not follow through on their plans and ideas ( no i follow strictly)
Their love of debate may cause them to provoke arguments ( not reli , i like friendly arguements :)
Big risk-takers and big spenders, not usually good at managing money ( why issit that they keep saying i am not good at handling money , although its so very true?)

Although they take their commitments seriously, they tend to abandon their relationships which no longer offer opportunity for growth ( was it reli because of my chracter that i chose this way ..but it couldn't have been , i was reli under too much pressure then )

ENTPs as Lovers
lol not reli interested in this section.

kop-ed frm jh blog
btw if u wana know ur personality go
http://www.mypersonality.info/

quite accurate, not bad not bad.
:)))

2008-06-12T00:24:00.003+08:00

i am serious, in going for yong siew toh consevatory . and i finally know, my mum supports me in doing so , but probably not my dad. i know perhaps its a too risky choice, i might end up with nothing .

reli ,i might just be a nobody.

if i lose everything, i will make sure i use elephant glue and glue myself up with the piano.
that is probably the last thing i will have tgt with my family and friends.

i thought about it hard , maybe not long enough , but something tells me i reli belong to it . and no matter what i choose to do , i will be recalled back to music one day . but i know i am not good enough , i know i am too late. but does it matter, as long as u have the passion for something, and you reli enjoy what u are doing, everything else can be discussed.

Applicants are required to perform one selection from each of the following five groups:

One virtuoso Etude by Chopin, Liszt, Rachmaninov, Debussy, Scriabin, Bartok, Stravinsky, Moszkowski, Prokofiev, Ligeti or Bolcom.
Chopin Etude Op. 10 No . 1 or no.12, or op.25 no. 1?
could try rach etude , certainly not bartok
Any Prelude & Fugue chosen from the Well Tempered Clavier by J.S. Bach
i dun think i can play any Complete prelude and fugue.
maybe some easy preludes.

A complete Sonata by Haydn, Mozart, Beethoven, Schubert, or Clementi

beethoven
"no 1"
"pathetique"
"tempest"
" waldstein???" a bit hard.

mozart k330 k309 k457 are my favs.
haydn the most famous one.
schubert sonatas..never even seen a shadow of it before.

A major work from the Romantic period
how major?
brahms liszt chopin sonata are ALL too difficult
the only i can think of are chopin ballad , schubert impromptus.
not too long though.

A representative work from the 20th century to the present
this is a killer, i reli dun like contemporary works.

So , i am not ready . and i dun have time to make it to next year admission.
:(
i cant even accomplish the required pieces, so dun even have to talk abt getting an application form.

2008-06-10T23:00:00.007+08:00

yes i am one day late, but does it matter at all . no njharmocians present will not blog about our concert anyway , because its our first ever concert!

and it will remain in our memory and i my greatest wish for us , is that one day we have a harmoc gathering with the juniors, and then we can reminisce everything once again.

i almost wanted to cry , but i just cant.

this is how i felt, yes i wanted to cry , because its the end of another cca journey . so hard we have been practicing for , everything has ended. we have been looking forward to it, and yes its ending as well, but the moment it ended, there was just this emptiness inside my heart, and this back-to-reality feeling which i am almost sure most of us will feel.

the barber of seville, the overture to william tell, canon, feng zi qiu,sound of music, ju hua tai and so much more.. that marks the end of en armonia I , but hey guys, there will always be more to come. this is after all, just a milestone for our band , because we have finally moven out of LT5. into esplanade , one of singapore's most representative perfoming arts venue. maybe one day , we might even be able to perform at the concert hall! it will not be long, but when the time comes , all of us will have become alumni.
lets not mention about the sad things anymore, because it wells up tears in my eyes.

anw, took quite a lot of pics, but i forgot to take pictures of gladys being crushed by kung yin! lol ! that was reli funny. anw here they are.

Me with the talented pipa player, Mr Cedric! without him , ju hua tai wouldn't be so nice , i m just so honoured to be able to perform with him. anw, i think the both of us reli have great mo qi !

this is harmoc guys , (j1 + j2) with mr tang, i am hiding at the back..mr tang looks so energetic even after a concert. i think..this is my only picture with mr tang..haha.

this is me with wq(left), and zm ( midddle) , my frens and classmates who came to my concert. reli thx for the support manx! although they never give me face after that by not going haagen daaz.. -.- but its ok..

me with jing huai (middle) and phoon yu,(the solo piano performer) . phoon yu is reli one of the most talented young pianists i have ever seen!! i have a feeling no one else can play bach better than he is in school!

meiling and me. just great to be able to take a pic with her. haha.

me and jinghuai , taking a FULL sectional picture. the piano section ..LOL!

finally reli , reli glad to have been able to see u and take a pic with you, and thanks for the flowers. i will always keep this photo with me :) because it is part of my wonderful memory , and it will always be :)

so we had lots of fun during this concert , and i am sure everyone enjoyed it, maybe i will never have a chance like this again, but i reli hope i do . because going on stage gives me a sense of satisfaction. i reli got to know the juniors better , maybe not everyone of them , but it gave me a chance to talk to many of them. and i reli enjoyed the laughter they created. i am sure they will not feel lonely without us, cause there are simply so many of them ! as compared to us last year, after our seniors left , we were left with barely more than 20 ppl...

and next year the juniors will be coming in , and i am sure our total "population" will continue to increase at an exponential rate, and we can overpower concert band one day ! wahaha!

oh yea , and there are people who gave me encouragement before the concert , and i reli want to thank u all as well!

xie xie zoey for her sms , things will always go well when she send me words of well wishes, and so i reli reli appreciate it. ( reminder: treat u to donuts!) haha hope one day can take a pic with u as well!

thanks to my best friend xiao han , yes i know , i treat u best , i treat u best , i treat u best! but u treat me best oso! thanks for the facial cleanser it reli helped a lot! although u cant come for the concert but its np. hey and hope u get well soon and we can hang out tgt one day :)

thanks mr chiang , although no flower, but sui bian la. just make sure u return the 50 dollars from the red lights syndrome? u better watch out , i will steal ur money..lol.

chim meng, for all his jokes, he can be super duper funny at time lol!

zhongming , for his support , reli thx le ..for coming to my concert . treat u to a drink after school reopen !

wq, ys, wj , my gang. we will always be the gang. thx for the..erm.. frog. ok fine, and sory , no thx to the person who drew the sucky black spot on the frog, u can go bang wall. i dun think can wash off la, wtf...

jia hui, levon , and jiawen , for eating my money . by ordering this (whats it called?) from haagen daaz. ok la, thx for the support also.

finally ,thx to my oldest friend and buddy in my life( known him since two years old), kaihiong, who was here "spiritually" with me. LOL!

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it was reli a nice time being with u , i am just sad that perhaps, we wunt have time to know each other anymore, because everything has ended , and i wunt be seeing u again anytime soon. as much as i wished the concert wasn't over, it already is . nice time talking to u , but maybe fate just doesn't allow us any chance to be better friends le.. hai.

2008-06-07T01:25:00.005+08:00

reli reli reli hope can take a pic with you, not because of anything, but just for memory .

anw ! today was our concert preview! at ngee ann kongsi theatre :) finally, the long awaited concert has started, and the first of the two is over yet so soon, which is so fast. its reli been so fast.. everything we have been practicing for rehearsing for, will end on mon. and all these will perhaps turn into memory and plain dust. but this is just a passive way of thinking.

on the other hand, it has been reli wonderful, and i got to know many of my juniors because of this, i am reli grateful to.. the concert itself.

nevertheless there were screw-ups in this concert which is perhaps inevitable . the song " i don't wanna miss a thing" was completely out of rhythm, perhaps not everything, but at least most parts of it. i could only console myself with the well -impressive skit.which norman says was quite gd, and i believe it reli is! ( i had never watched the whole skit before... -.-)

running a concert has always been a tiring thing, no matter at which level or stage. a concert involving a band of 70 has been so all the more. i reli think ivy has put in lots of effort for it and she deserves the greatest credit not because she is the sc, but because she is my sl. haha, lols! ( ivy, gd of me to say that eh?)

yes but , i should say gladys and norman has given their best as well, i can see the weary faces (maybe i will try upload some pics) , and even though gladys showed the nervous side of her just during and before the concert itself, i think it was reli great that both of them kept their composure, so that the juniors will not panic as well.

but we had lots of fun as well , shouting "CAT HIGH SUCKS!" (LOL , that was because they said something which i seriously think will offend ANY rvians") and almost everyone, meaning those not from rv joined in as well. i think they cant put up with the cat high guys as well . because they are simply too " arrogant"! yes arrogant is the word to describe them, and putting down any school like the way they did will not end up in ANY gd result for them .

perhaps , not everything went smoothly. but it was not jh's fault.. she reli tried her very best, i know she feels bad about it , for letting the band down , but to be fair to her as well, she reli spent lots of time at the beats and rhythm , and i could see and feel her improvements. and, mostly everyone get nervous on stage and it is a very different thing when u play the piano alone than when u are sitting together with the rest of the band playing. every note counts, and there is always the fear of missing even a single one.

our song was screwed up as well, ehh, haha, better not talk abt that one.

我希望你可以选我为你的朋友。:)

anw took pics with levon and yh , wanted to take with the guys, but i think we will take a lot of grp ones next mon , and of cuzz with mr shuai ge..wahaha.

dats levon , a sec 3 and 4 classmate . lol , someone jealous??wahahah.

and shes the only person who is involved in the concert and was my classmate.

this is ... erm future to be psc scholar , and i took this pic so that next time can ask for her help if she is successful . i will tell her "lol , dun pretend u dunno me leh , look at this!" then she will stun tio! look at her smile, got this evil look ..hehehe.

anw, no meaning in putting up these two photos, cuz its abt the only photos i took after the concert preview ended. harmoc guyx mon ! we must chiong after that, after all its not an everyday experience.

this sense of pure happiness, its been a long time :)

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the way u looked at me with those cold eyes just before the concert, like an unfamiliar stranger.

i knew u just came specially to see them , but at least u cld talk to me. the mere hello, it was perhaps not even better den a normal senior i know. is it just so hard for us to at least talk to each other, is it just that awkward for u ?

it feels reli like a dream , a dream of happiness , or perhaps, more like a straw in a drink of happiness, once u sucked everything out of it, u will never have the chance to drink from it again.

i still cant forget u .

2008-06-05T21:45:00.003+08:00

a weak fifth finger?
and she could tell..

but it would be more obvious if i had to play a bach fantasie like the one phoon yu is playing.
hmm, i really must get rid of this problem so that any technical difficulties involving it can be solved.

yes because of it, i cant even play my own arrangement of can-can.

from now ownwards, heavy trills practice with the forth and fifth finger.
hanon exercises.
everyday.

2008-06-05T02:17:00.002+08:00

i have been insensible.

lets not cross the line.

perhaps, i am thinking too much ?
if only could stay this way forever..

2008-06-05T02:06:00.002+08:00

i guess after reading a blog of people helps in undecoding their inner self, that is if they choose to reveal themselves on blog , i thought perhaps maybe thre was something more to her ,and perhaps i was right . perhpas wrong.
i remember she told me once before, a person chooses to reveal his/her worst feelings or emotions on the blog as a form of experession. and come to think of it, yes it is very true indeed. but maybe , not everything should be said, not everything can be said. as long as you know people will visit ur online entries ,and they will form opinions of u from ur blog, then perhaps before hitting the "publish post" button, u will tend to think twice .

but it works the other way round as well. blogging provides u an avenue to show publicly ur expressions as well. for example, in the case of disliking or liking a person, u could choose to tell him/her straight in the face indirectly. and thats the irony , thats the confusion as well. because people interact with so many other people in daily life, it is sometimes impossible to distinguish the actual " him/her " who is being referred in the blog. and this will generate the confusion that would otherwise not have happened if people din't have blogs.

i think, life without blogs would reli be boring. haha :))

2008-06-03T01:39:00.005+08:00

Aww.. i think its high time to change my thinking..

2008-06-02T00:55:00.002+08:00

does she reli think this way?
she cant even tell care from pity , den y shld i even care.
i shldn't even have , she has so much frens, so many ppl who care more.
talking to her will only anger me , because i just can't understand.

i had a bad feeling before sending it, and i was right. i shldn't even have.

i am angry, because u could forget and lean on someone else so fast.
i am frustrated, because you actually thought wat i had for u is pity .
i am helpless, because i can only know u are upset and not being able to help.
i am so angry and depressed at the same time .. but its always because of u .
i had never mind that, but its just u treating me so coldly.

i wish i din't have emotions , at least not for u . not because i dun wan to , but it just hurts me so much to feel even a single thing .

2008-05-31T23:58:00.002+08:00

i reli want to tell you , that most relationships are not like this.
There are problems , it is true. but not to the extent u will feel the blues yet so often.
i have realized it, but maybe all too late.

from the way i see how u try , it reli makes my heart break..
if u were reli happy with him , den at least i wld be better.. but knowing dat u are not, makes me all the more guilty of what i have done.

maybe a compromise will be better , because perhaps u are just too used to others giving in to u .
but it doesn't always work this way..
i reli hope all this wil be solved, and u will remain happy :)
its reli been a long time since i saw a smile on ur face.

2008-05-26T20:56:00.005+08:00

A very true story from the china earthquake, shown on the charity show by mediacorp.

There is this young mother , whom was buried under the rubbles when the earthquake occured.
She was carrying her new born baby in her arms when the disaster striked, and after a few days under the rubbles , she died.

then rescuers found her under the pile of collapsed houses, lying in a very weird manner. they decide to investigate why she was lying in that manner. she was flat-down on the ground , with her front body facing the ground. They found out that she was actually trying to protect her newborn baby by using her body as a shield to prevent him from being hit by the falling debris.
her baby did not die and manage to survive because of his mum's sacrifice, and was carried to the hospital for treatment.

resucuers also found a handphone in which the mother was clutching in her hand. it had a message in it , and it reads ,
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.
.
.
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亲爱的宝贝,
如果你活了下来
知道我永远爱你.

i am sure the baby will grow up one day and come to understand this message ..

yes , it is just another one of the disaster that may happen in any part of the world any time. but for the survivors of this earthquake , they really have a long way to go. many of them have lost ther dearest families , and to me, nothing seems more significant than the victims of this earthquake, and certainly not any troubles or problems in my life.

the effects of the earthquake will perhaps, be diminshed with time . and we will look back one day , to remember those who have lost their lives in their earthquake. but , to the families of the earthquake victims, it will be something that they will always remember and live with for the rest of their lives.

2008-05-17T23:59:00.002+08:00

my life is so boring now, eveyday wake up slp eat study play com slp eat play piano slp again. its like a piano sonata which has a fixed "format". perhaps on sat , i go out wif jiangay, to eat botak jones but other then that , everything else remain largely the same . but it was all along the same old boring life until something brought spice to my life.
haha, after common test , sentosa !

i am thinking, how is xh doing now.. its has been such a long time i ever caught up with him . perhaps we are both much too busy now, his rjc life and my nj life jux don't cross each other.
perhaps staying at the top in a top institution isn't a easy feat, not even for someone like him whom i think IQ is much more higher than an average person.
but come to think of it, i really relish the times with him , we could chat together for hours and any topic and laugh together at the slightest joke.
its like some friendships, you would never want to lose.
i am jux fortunate to have him as a good friend.
hey , best frens forever. no matter what happens to you..hehs!

it still pricked me , but its has already became a dream long ago.
but ur happiness is still as equivalent to mine..
but from the bottom of my heart , wish u happiness! :)
take aire too~~

2008-05-16T13:36:00.002+08:00

the earthquake, i wonder how many are still left buried under the rubbles. sometimes i think news are just too distant from us..
when we sit down at the sofa comfortably watching the news , we dismay at how many lives are lost , but this feeling of inner shock is far from what the people in china are actually experiencing . our sympathy can only bring us that far.
what is happening to our earth , so many disasters in recent years, people who are suffering , whose lives are already bad enough are facing yet more problems.
just thinking of a child who might still be stuck under a collapsed house makes my heart soft...

2008-05-16T13:29:00.002+08:00

hey hey! i have to say i am really SORRY i never reply ur sms , cause my phone line was cut as i never pay my phone bills?! sounds kinda lame but this is really true yea.. i was too busy lately i never bother to even check my phone bills.. hais.

i am probably going to pay later, cuz my mum is too busy as well. -.-

so common test was a flop.!

i just hope my chemistry doesn't fail again, if not ms lim will be very disappointed.
too tired to blog, yesterday slept at 3am so as to chiong finish all the stuff i am supposed to have done long ago. thats human habit, procrastination.

yes it is the downfall of even the greatest and the most talented.

2008-05-08T19:30:00.002+08:00

My favourite ^^ La campanella :) Enjoy!

Btw , Look at 2.38 , i would not be human if i could do that :((
bt pianist is li yundi

winner of the international chopin compeitition 2000 !

2008-05-04T09:23:00.005+08:00

haha! today first time i wake up so early, its only 9am!

ok fine, i know one friend who wakes up at 7am to mug, but already considered an improvement from yesterday . where i woke up at 11am and couldn't do anything.

today i must spend some time at revision, so called "study for common test lo"

but perhaps i just want to put in some effort to see what i can achieve lo, but i know.. its alr one wk before the common test le :((((

and i stoned for a while, because i dunno what to write.. stone (shi tou)

ok , my last finger is recuperating from the knock with the basketball. yea i am a bit noob, while playing basketball my last finger accidentally collided head on with the basketball and got a light sprain and some swell.

i was so afraid.. fingers are after all the most important part of my body, i would rather lose anything in exchange than those. but now whenever i bend it , it stil hurts and when i tried to play on fri in the band room , i realize there was still some stuff which i could not do .

hehs got the harmoc shirt on fri , i shld say its quite ok , but except just ONE thing. it looks like YHHB 's harmoc shirt with the yellow and black design lol!!??? erm probably except the words on it. erm i think i still prefer the old smooth and comfy harmoc shirt ba . which is last year de design.

2008-05-03T01:57:00.003+08:00

CIP has officially ended two weeks ago ! Although it was not very memorable , (becuase of all the mischievious kids running around , and the disappearing kids as well?) but perhaps it will be something i will always hold close to my heart. knowing the kids has really been a great time for me, there is nothing more fulfilling than to see them following your instructions and having fun at the same time.

of course, sometimes they tend to disregard whatever you have told them and this makes us people who are doing the cip all the more irritated , in addition to the hot afternoon. but i try to understand them , or at least i hope i have tried.. by attempting to integrate into their small little world to understand them and allow them to have someone to talk to at least if i am unable to solve all their problems . but then , one may ask , whats the point of helping these delinquent kids when their chracter building which requires a far longer period is beyond our abilities. i think the best answer would be to make them feel as blissful as they can .

after all they are kids, and they are really a special bunch . yes believe me.

its the period of their lifetime when they can enjoy as much as they can without being pressurized by externally. just recall the smile on their faces. perhaps their happiness was achieved at the expense of ours.. but no longer should we be too concerned about our own happiness when faced with such a innocent and extraordianry group of young children. in case you haven't realized, what my previous sentence meant is that they are problematic kids facing social and family issues. perhaps , their parents may be fighting when the sun set, not realizing that their child requires their attention, not much , but just an unselfish bit would be more than enough. they may be full of foul words, but that doesn't stop them from making kind gestures to you when you treat them to snacks, or thank you when you have helped them in some way or another

perhaps it might be hard to change them , but we don't have to . we just want to bring lasting smiles onto their face once more. :)

perhaps they may not remember me , but one day if ever i see any one of them on the streets, i really do hope they can wave hello to me..

2008-05-03T01:51:00.002+08:00

haha ! i realized that i hvnt had any dinner yet, and its 1.54 am now! had 3 dota GAMES ! nothing is more on my mind that guilt left behind. what am i doing .. am i making the correct decision as responsible young adult should. there are so many things i have to do , and i cant just rely on curriculum to finish up everything .
nothing except the thought of guilt ..
i told everyone i wld study hard, what am i doing..?

2008-04-29T00:50:00.003+08:00

haha! today so happy.
at least now, we have a small conversation going. but i am alr happy enough. although i know i shld have talked to her first..
n i managed to accomplish what i wanted to .

maybe not..

2008-04-23T16:55:00.002+08:00

i guess she doesn't read my blogs anymore le.. so haha its ok.
yea she finally managed to get everything off her, all the stress and everything she has been carrying for all the past few months. i thought she should have no problem, and it turns out i was right :)
wanted to send an sms to congratulate her , but it just seems weird. but yea, i really feel that she has tried hard and its just natural she gets what she wants.

perhaps sum1 else will bring her happiness, in future to come, and from the bottom of my heart,i really hope she gets it.
i know wishing alone cant atone for all i have done , but i have simply no other ways anymore.

and i have got what i wanted as well!
perhaps not everything, because there's still A levels to come!

distinction for grade 8 piano!
when i received the sms from my teacher , i was abit disappointed cuz the sms reads this:
congratulations! u passed ur grade 8 exam................................... and followed by a whole strings of dots, only after i saw the btm word ,i felt extreme happiness.
haha , super elated over this, i never dreamt that i could achieve this. just 6 years ago, i envied how hongda managed to pass his grade 8 exam, and seeing his fingers run through the keyboard, was a fascination for me. i couldn't play well then.

it has always been just a long time dream , but only when you have reached it, you yearn for more to come.

i know i must not be complacent , and i must be ready for more . there is nothing much to celebrate, becuase there are still others who are better than me , and the only way to know my true standard is to participate in compeititions and concerts. and my next target is the diploma, followed by the licentiate!

Music has really become part of my life, i really do not know how life will be without chopin's nocturnes and waltzes, liszt's hungarian rhapsodies, brahms' capriccios, and most importantly, the defining works of mozart and beethoven , their sonatas :)

how good would it be if i could play a full length piano concerto with an orchestra. i am not asking for rachmanioff's third. just simple mozart..

2008-04-20T22:39:00.003+08:00

2.4 km failed!!! took napfa on sat , and first 10 minutes ran 5 rounds,and on the last round, i felt really giddy and so decided to stop running..
hai, its my only barrier to getting a gold , and i want to get it , because this will be the last napfa i am taking, i must get a gold no matter what!

so training everyday from now ownwards, until the last day i am going to run and get a gold.
for myself.

i wonder when will have i muster enough courage to learn mephisto waltz. i am now praticing for 3 hours a day , its not enough for a concert pianist, but way too much for a student who is taking A levels exams this year..

just how nice would it be if i could play a piano concerto with a full orchestra .. maybe that day will never come.. because there are others pianists who are more skilled , more enthusiastic , more qualified..

i wish everyone gets well soon, so many people have been diagnosed ill. some influenza have caused great disruption to out class.. and everyone is taking mc.

i will not make the same mistake again , unless i can be sure its only pure friendship and nothing else.
is it really possible for 2 person of the opposite sex to become very good friends without any additional feelings involved ...

learning Brahms, capriccio in B minor Op. 76 No.2 now. inspiring work, not too hard to learn first two pages .. but difficult to express it well..

2008-04-14T22:05:00.002+08:00

went to choir concert yesterday, and they sang rosas pandan for their encore! it was really fantastic , should really have recorded it down.. i dunno why, it just seems kinda special to listen to them sing this flipino folksong.

to watch a video of a chorale singing rosas pandan, refer to right :)

2008-04-13T23:52:00.002+08:00

so its en armonia I, our first name for our harmoc concert, and finally our concert has a name. what is its significance ? haha it means a lot, means that we are getting more influential , getting more powerful, and probably going to get more recognition , i hope... but i have this simple dream that one day nj harmoc will grow to be strong in its logistics , with our own instruments and band room just like concert band. but i guess for now it will still be a wish, because we dun reli need a band room , the instrument we use, powerful yet small, has great mobility and we can just carry it around whenever we go.

but come to think of it, if we had a band room , we wouldn't have to move all the drums and keyboard and double bass everytime we have practice.. and isn't it just great to be able to head straight for our band room instead of waiting for extra lsns to end before being able to occupy LT3..

so this weekend , no homework completed at all again.. because i just couldn't control myself spending unnecessary time at the computer and going out with friends. (very bad leh!)

yea (yan2 xi1 zao3) is right, at his age, he probably ought to be thinking about relationships and stuff, but something i really agree with him , there is a time for everything. perhaps it is just a matter of maturity , which i don't think i have yet.. and probably thats why she just treats me like a little kid..

so chum liao =.= hvnt do the compre yet must go do now, but its 12 am liao! how todo ? must slp as well??!!
in a huge dilemna..!
sianZ>>>

i just want to know how you are, but i dun dare to call or sms
i know i shouldn't, but its out of my control.
do we reli hv to distance ourselves , or perhaps it just happens naturally like this?
i really wish i hadn't.

2008-04-06T01:37:00.003+08:00

hellOs!

i have received the piano and violin score from mr tang.. its romance in F by beethoven! lovely song , equal parts for violin and piano and this piece.. how should i say it?
it really is a typical beethoven piece and people who enjoy beethoven will probably like it , and.. as usual , i always like the minor section of his compositions. he never fails to put a unique touch on every music he writes and this is what captures the audience, be it the ornaments such as the repeated turns , or the dynamic range , or even the modulation. its always so heart wrenching to hear beethoven..

but perhaps listening too much will bore one out, because the repeated sections in different styles might sound similar to one another.. so i always try to put others periods of music or composers together with him .

to watch Abaddo Blacher play romance in F :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=64KW04601ts&NR=1
(orchestra part become piano part)

i can almost feel why mr tang likes this piece a lot :)

tmr.. what should i do?
1. mug
2..learn the piano part of romance in F
3. mug
4. finish the arrangement
5. ... start ct revision??!!

haha looks like ..looks like .. must start le! left only 5 more weeks!

so late le..wondering if u have reached hm..

2008-04-02T02:36:00.004+08:00

its late at night, i am feeling better. the throat has turned less sore and i dun think there will be any chance for fever..! or shld i pray and hope it will not come for days to come.

i know its late, yet the mood for sleeping has not sunk into me. i am worrying about will about our concert.. its not too far away le..but .. are we really ready for a full-scale concert at esplanade. we still have 2 more months , but its just a mere 2 months . and honestly speaking, i really do not know whether the j1 and j2's feel the urge to put up a brillant performance on june 10th. i just dun feel it , its not the same feeling as syf last year.
issit bcoz its not a compeition, but again.. this is even more important. parents , friends and outsiders, they will be watching us. and they will be expecting a gold with honours harmonica band.

i need to practice , and do so very hard. because i know every single person matters in the band, i cannot simply rely on others to cover up mistakes due to a lack of practice.

and again, its not only the band that is causing my worriedness. its the common test as well, coming in approximately 5 weeks time.. and the pressure arises because we have to have time to study as well as to get the pieces for our concert ready.. how well can i do .. even if i wanted to put in the effort to do well..

i have already wasted too much time last year, and when dreams become shattered, reality sets in. i did not regret it at all, because it was really a learning experience, except that the lesson was really painful. it caused so much hurt because i did not know what i was not mature enough to handle it.. but there will always be this regret that i caused her to feel so much pain throughout everything, and it shld have never been the case. but most imptly, bcoz of this, i lost sum1 who could very well became a very good friend instead. but ..i shld hv known , all along we were frens.. and it should have remained so that way.

but it has always been the case that when ppl lose, den they start to treasure..

no sms from her.. i hope she doesn't get the wrong idea because of my frenster account thingy. and because its a prank on me! but again, i am thinking why wld the person who hacked the account post such a thing ..?

tmr.. oh no. cant mug again.. mr tan coming .. lols!
den i shall leave my hse to mug.. buahahah!

2008-04-01T15:08:00.002+08:00

sorethroat..ahh!! its nt very painful, but i always find it irritating to have a sorethroat, especially going to school. cuz smtimes in sch nid to talk a lot, and it makes the condition all the more worse. n i got a bit of headache as well, so today nt gg for harmoc le..i really scared it develops into a fever and i will have to miss lessons..

today wrote a gp essay in school , i know we need more practice in essay, but writing essay is really like a brain drain for me.. :((
to think of all the chim but apt vocabulary and ensure every sentence there is no grammatical error!!
and most imptly think of pts for the essay and ensure the structure is correct! i wrote on : youths in sg today are self-centered . is this a fair comment?
and i truly have to say no comment can be fairer den this. but of course by saying this i am making a baseless assumption and generalisation that all youths are this way.. which obviously is not la but for the sake of the discussion i have to take a stand.haha

argh! my frenster account tio hacked...! and the thing is i dun think my password is easy to guess at all .. the most irritating thing is that person who hacked my account posted messages in my name in other people's profile!! that is really an ugly thing to do, and i think i know who it is.. guessing his intentions. i think people with no morals will remain like this ba, so i wunt try to find out who did it , cuz i really dun wan to know..

today got caught my miss chua ( a maths teacher) for not wearing the collar pin . but the most funny thing is before she caught me, she caught kai mun!! and kaimun's face, as usual in awkward situation , tuned tomato red! haha..while me and eugene was waiting for him , we were laughing quite badly, cuz he really looked super funny wif his tomato face..!! haha, but i got my fair share for laughing at me, cuz i was standing quite close to miss chua and she turned round and saw me. and oops, haha , i forgot to wear the collar pin.. so had to purchase one frm the bookshop and look for her after sch.. but i think she wld be a nice lady if she wasn't so strict cuz when she looks kind when she smiles :)

i nvr do the singlish holiday assignment! spposed to be handed in long ago le , but i did not have it with me cuz on the day she handed out the assignment there wasn't enough. suprisingly or maybe was it her usual self.. she didn't scold me ! all of a sudden , i don't know why .. i just felt.. guilty . she wasn't strict when it comes to homework, and any reasonable excuse would allow me to escape punishment and hand in the homework later. but the nicer the teacher is, the more gulity one will feel when he/she doesn't hand in his/her hw.

she is so kind, yet i took it for granted and made her life difficult by nit handing in hw..how could i ..

2008-03-20T20:48:00.002+08:00

haha yep, the three day break is going to be over soon le, left only a few more hours.. its always towards the end when you suddenly realized that you have not really done any concrete work .
i think compared to my other clsmates, the amt of hw done by me is really insignificant.

again, i am arranging the song cai hong by jay chou for june concert.. hmm hav to finish it asap so that the whole band can learn it . given the short amount of time left, i wonder if we have enuf time to prepare for the concert.
i reali hope it will be a success.. and hope to receive some flowers by sum1 at the end of it..
hope hope.
cross my fingers! haha!

i am tired , because these few days i have been slping late, and its really v late..
and this is going to stop because it simply is a matter of self control. mux learn to control when to slp so that i wunt slp in lecture during the next day and miss out all the impt stuffs..

i look forward to the concert , because we r gg to put in hard work like we did during syf and let our audiences enjoy what we have for them !

2008-03-13T15:35:00.004+08:00

! back from piano exam !

haha , ok it was scary time with the england lady. 1 to 1 .. but she was friendly and that really helped a lot.
as soon as it started the pieces, my hands were like shaking.

i dono how it happened. i just had feelings today.
scales were ok , some mistakes here and there but overall it was fine.
sight reading -.- dun talk about it le, i simply looked at a fresh piece of music and played it without getting any notes correct at all..

aural tests were ok except the last part when the examiner asked for the form of the music.. hai . i simply did not know.. and he told me instead it was a Bach 4-part fugue. i thought it was a 2 part invention.
i only mentioned polyphony.

i really need those marks, but simply they were far out of reach....!!
then went to play arcade a while after the exam, just to relax. wanted to watch 10000BC , but no one was with me. so thought might as well go home :)

hmm , nodame cantabile is really nice.

me too, i really relished the wonderful memories you have given me.
it was pure happiness..
i understand :)
one day, if ever you need me, will always be there for u..

2008-03-12T22:11:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is my piano exam!!!!!
wahh haha listened to all the pieces on cd at least more than 20 times le, until really sian!

reli hope to do well.
but again .. a piece with no feelings is just a bunch of notes with sound.

whr can i get all the strong feelings i used to have back?
but it will never happen again.

again, aiming for distinction but seems so faraway now with my uncompleted scales.

oh ya, the youtube video, its nodame cantabile opening video, from a jap anime .
enjoy everyone! =)

2008-03-12T21:33:00.003+08:00

I AM IN LOVE!!!

with Liszt's Mephisto Waltz !!

wonderful piano composition by liszt, this piece should be one of the represetative works of liszt as it really brings out his style of composition..!
the slow element provide a dynamic contrast to its fast counterpart..and at the same time "supports" it.
and of course the catching melody and the rapid chromaticism.. its just pure brillance.
last but not least, it takes no less than a piano virtuoso to play and bring out its wide range of tonal dynamics.

the story behind it :

( adapted from wikipedia )

Lenau's episode at the village inn, which Liszt chose, ("The Dance / Village Inn / Wedding. Music and Dance") is of a rather erotic nature: Faust and Mephistopheles as hunter enter an inn where a wedding party is being held. Mephistopheles takes a fiddle from one of the minstrels, tunes it (represented in Liszt's music by the 5ths build up at the start of the piece) and plays a frantic dance. The music [Liszt] slows for an amorous new waltz theme which intoxicates the village peasants. Even the "echoing walls" [Lenau] of the inn "lament, pale with jealousy, because they cannot join in the dancing" [Lenau]. Faust takes advantage of this and dances with the bride, a black-eyed beauty (not "Gretchen" but "Hannchen"), and after some wooing, elopes into the woods with the young girl..., a nightingale sings a tune, and the music [Liszt] builds to an exciting climax when the pair is "swallowed up by the impetuous waves of amorous rapture" [Lenau]. Before the climax of this "rapture" Liszt lets the sensual lyrical theme of the Waltz reappear.]

hmm, this piece really calms you.
its takes merely listening once to let the whole piece sink in in you. listen carefully to the arpeggios.

2008-03-03T19:49:00.003+08:00

hey bro, if u see are seeing this, u shld not be. u shld be studying . or practising ur flute right now.

haha, this week the kids @ keming no more exams, so got to plan smth fun for them .. lol my idea really very limited because i am not a very fun person in the first place. i need a "joker" to help me think of some really fun ideas...i tried to think of playing some games michael tay once played wif us before. maybe tomorrow we could try doing some quiz, i have roughly prepared the qns!

haha, this wk has been really suay for wei qin. eh brother, hope you get well soon. have been absent from sch one week le, but i think catch up is leng leng for you. (if ever u see this...)
or u trying to skip lsns only?
cya in sch tmr!!

but its just because i was really angry at that time..
angry at why you are treating me like this..bcoz smrwhr u r still in my heart.
hai, maybe we will nv get to understand each other..

2008-03-02T20:21:00.004+08:00

well, as you can see , i am the new target of being spammed.. despite whatever efforts..
the theory that when you treat people nice, they will treat you back the same way , holds true.. and i always believe it does.
except for some people, like mr anno.
i think spamming on people's blog is not the correct thing to do in the first place..and the spammer the least he could do was to say what was wrong and who he is. but no, he spat rubbish on my tagboard WITHOUT saying why he would do that. no given reasons AT ALL.
and the funny thing is. seems like his friends all supported his "courageous behaviour".

and well, now we have one supporter of anno , i think. she has blatantly told me to grow up, meaning literally. and for every reason i think i should .. but at my own pace.
looks like sum1 has long forgotton the feeling of being spammed in the tagboard without the slightest reason given ..and is now supporting spammers instead. lols.
pls do, go on helping.

anw , i was actually being held in pretence the whole while.
i really cannot believe sum1 can actually have such a change of attitude. well , after all no matter what i do, i am STill being targeted in sum1'sblog.
do you think we are even like friends now from your words?
but anyway from your latest tags,we have nothing to with each other anymore.
clear enough?

btw tmr morning get back phone!

i have lost everything.

2008-02-29T22:47:00.005+08:00

too harsh on you..?

but you simply have pushed ur limit enough.. and i think all those who came to my blog knows.
maybe i thought just telling you nicely and ignoring you helps , but well, it just didn't work.

one last chance. leave your real name on my tagboard before the whole world knows who you are.
no? pls dun say i did not give you a chance, ah pui.

all the prank calls from you.
all the prank calls from your friends.
ur ridiculous behaviour.

grow up..boy.
its not worth it, by doing this, you won't get what you want.

2008-02-29T19:53:00.004+08:00

!! FRIDAY !!

haha, its the best day of the week , tonite finally can slp a bit later again..!! what shall i do ...hmm. reli nth much to do actually.. asked ph what he was gonna do when he did not want to eat dinner wif the rest of harmoc guyz, he told me " i wan to MUG!" , haha, reli i dun mean anything but i think there shld be rest and work balanced...!!
ok, or maybe i am too lazy ..le..?

weekend..
1. clear complex number 2 tutorial
2. read econs unemployment notes
3. read physics a.c current
4. get handphone back from twq.

haha, erm...gt smth i wana say..
these few days sry for not replying sms bcoz i don't have my phone with me right now. i am using my friend's phone and he hasn't passed me the charger.. i will sms as soon as i get back my phone!!!

mr tsang: why didn't you come for roadrun??
me: erm, i did come, but i was late..
mr tsang: late for how long arh..
me: 2 hrs..
mr tsang: i mean! thats ridiculous larh!
me: eh...haha. -.-

hope you always stay happy ,
n rmb to drink water wherever u are :)

2008-02-26T15:31:00.002+08:00

wasting my time away in bytz (sch com lab!)!!
nothing much to do anw besides doing tutorial and more tutorials :(
anw i found this good website for buying inexpensive and most of the time good electronic gadgets, haha, unfortunately u might need a credit card or debit card.. try going www.paypal.com and set up an account first.. for safer and secure transaction..
and then, www.dealextreme.com. i was recommended this site by a fren , and it might be quite useful for some of you who wants to buy simple electronic stuff :)

haha , last week de stayover at my house was considered fun..think we all enjoyed ourselves! the only thing maybe I did not enjoy was the cleaning up part..
read on..

gd lo they all, deep fry some oily stuff in my house, eat finish and refuse to clean up. my hse was left in a complete mess after that, empty bottles, waste tissues, plates (OILY!) lying around. and I was the only one who cleaned the whole house after they had all the fun and left..
haha nxt time we settle, go weijian house make a mess..
tan wei jian u better watch out ..haha! try bringing all the oily food to my house and deep fry AGAIN! -.-

it just feels so empty and different..
no i am not blaming u..its nt..
but those things u said, it reli hurts..
r we reli to become like this..

2008-02-19T20:44:00.002+08:00

:)

tmr is going to be the start of cip , at keming pri.. this is actually the first time i am organizing such cip stuff, hope it doesn't cock up or smth. i think the main purpose of this is for everyone to enjoy, 07s03 and the keming kids. although it mainly comprises of tuition , but at the same time there will be outdoor stuff like captain ball and other sport games !

i hope the activities planned will go smoothly..and everyone reli enjoys this instead of finding it a chore. =D

today was harmoc audition, it was a enjoyable performance put up by all the juniors! haha, they rox! there is this gal from nan hua her harmoc is super pro de, and she was mr tang(our conductor) student before.. and there was another gal , haha , the sound came out very differently , like smoother and richer textual. i tot she must have been in choir before, n not surprisingly either, she was CO woodwind before...

hope to meet my sec 4 clsmates on sat. ask them come my house le, 2 agreed .. the rest too busy. how to say ar, its not easy meeting up cuz our timetable all diff.. so only weekend.
come to think of it , i miss the 4H gang lots. although we always quarrel, and make fun of each other, we were still gd frenz at the end of the day.. den now come to diff jc le, seems to be getting further apart frm each other.

am i foolish to be the only one suffering now ,
she doesn't seem to even care le

i know its my fault for all that happened
but i cant help but think y did u erase us so fast...
the wonderful memories we gave each other..
don't they hold anything at all?

2008-02-17T11:01:00.000+08:00

邂逅的那天

没有任何东西我都不会觉得孤独
爱和世界都在我的梦里
因为有等待的你
现在我在忍耐一切在我心中和你没有
离别的地方
同一时间有着一样的回忆现
在分享吧!希望不是在很遥远的地方
在幸福的时刻
你回到我身旁
擦掉眼泪
和你留下的只有爱
没有任何痛苦
在我的心里有你
我就不是一个人
你知不知道
因为有等待的你
现在我在忍耐一切
在我心中和你没有离别的地方
你现在回到我身边

2008-02-17T10:38:00.002+08:00

i just vacumned the whole house and maybe going to wipe the tables and my piano later..
haha, housework..my mum go overseas le so i am left alone to do it. nvm, i think housework are only boring when u think it is..in my opinion, it gives me a chance to exercise.

my house is renovated, and tidied up..think i will be calling some frens over ba..to study. (realli?)
and of course, to play!

talking about social lists, dun ever think u are unsociable.
people i have gone out wif start of this year:
1. rschiobu
2. wei qin
3. cannot think of anyone else -.-

thats because... nt bcoz of anti-socialism , but its just i am being fenced up.

wei3 qu1 ni le..

2008-02-10T00:08:00.001+08:00

NEW YEAR!

hmm fianlly came back to my almost dying blog, trying to make it revive again..haha! and i am going to succeed. for this i have the confidence!

top recommendation for having fun during Chinese New Year :

1. Angpao festival @ esplanade

well there is this huge event going on every year, with loads of stuff, including thrilling rides, lots of ethnic performances and most imptly, FOOD!

haha, if you are free , and want to immerse yourself in the festive season, the place is just right for you.

ytd went to watch Chingay festival preview @ padang!
actually i think it is one of the best roadshows i have ever watched le, there was quite a number of people performing , but i think the highlights is still the F1 racing car . when it raced through the street, i was like omg! u reli cant imagine the loudness of the sound the car made ..
mostly it was just people and more people wearing different fanciful costumes , but i think overall each had its own unique characteristics :)
thx to vic and jing qi for the tix! =DD

when the fireworks are over, all is empty but a dark , empty sky..

2008-01-23T22:21:00.000+08:00

everyone seems to be opposing us, and they are getting tired..
do i have any options at all..yes i have.
but to choose the other option, a lot a lot of ppl wld be unhappy.. and u wldn't be as well.
and when both sides dun give up, it will become very tiring.

u think dun i feel painful at all...?
it wasn't a choice of cowardity..

2008-01-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

the number 100th post!

2008-01-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

its 12am now le , and i gotta discuss the details of cip with my class tmr. hope this cip goes well for us, reli cannot afford to cok up ..! i just wan everyone to have fun at the same time while collecting cip hours, so there are a lot of things to settle.

hmm nowadays i can slp a lot , . maybe is too tired frm doing heavy work.. or maybe i dun slp enugh at nite, aftn tend to be a lot more drowsy. but must get enugh slp , if not slp during lectures again den miss a lot again.

i insist ipod is better den psp ! psp looks like a fat rectangular box...tsk tsk!

v^^v!

2008-01-09T22:22:00.000+08:00

whoever u are, if u think spamming on the tagboard is the solution to the problem.. and can vent ur hatred, i wld nt mind at all.. but to me its just so pointless that i am actually talking to sum1 who i dun even know. if there is anything we can discuss and talk it out, i reli want to , bcoz this doesn't help at all.

2008-01-05T01:08:00.000+08:00

wahahha!!
school has started for 3 days alr, and i have met all my tutors..i think they are fine..and i think we can work well tgt (if i do my hw =D)
so this wkend off to clear some holiday hw, unfinished ones. cannot afford to slack le, somehow i can alr feel it, less den 10 mths its going to be a lvls le.. but i dun think i will start work so early haha!

so today was the cca carnival, i saw quite a lot of rvians floating around, so i went arnd giving them info abt harmoc as well, and quite a lot of them seemed interested as well. hmm, i hope next year will have more rvians joining harmoc so will be more proportionate to the actual cohort.

RV! RV! the best! the best!
rv the best!
chigerlata piya piya!
chigerlata piya piya!
swa!

i rmb we used to sing a lot of cheers in rv, and somehow i think rvians are knitted to each other, even schoolmates who don't know each other well will have a very close feeling and this is only because they were once from the same school.. the rv spirit, we were asked quite often what was that, and only did i leave rv did i really understood. cheers, to rv!
come to think of it , i really cannot imagine someone hating his own sec skl, esp our skl..

i just want to go swimming , but no one wants to go with me.. mum and bro both cant..

so there is cip newspapers collection tomorrow, time to fa hui speech skills again... haha! must convince the people to donate some newspapers to us so we can raise funds for harmoc!! harmoc fund is reli running low rite now..
an ambitious and caring person , it always goes together.. even the most ambitious man must learn how to take care of others, only then will he be a real man.

cant access blog

2008-01-02T19:53:00.001+08:00

it seems right, yet it seems wrong..
but isn't it the nature of man to feel this way..
hai.